My crazy, interesting, & hopefully inspiring life. Alt caption: DON'T BE LIKE DREW

so i was talking to my track coach on the phone about how many life lessons i have learned in the last six months and he said "have you written a blog post lately, i think this is a good time for you to write one"

so here we are

if you want to hear about my interesting, messy, confusing life...please keep reading because i'm sure you will get a kick out of it lolz

i just started my second semester of college and let me just tell ya, my first one sure was a crazy one. i never knew coming into college that my life was going to change so drastically. i mean like, i knew it would change, but not THIS much. i never thought i would go through so many hardships but only to come out STRONGER and an even better version of myself then i was. i love who i am now, and the hardships i have gone through have gotten me here and no matter how much i cried last semseter, i am so so so thankful i was able to go through what i thought was the "hardest time of my life". haha well drew, you were just getting started :-)

hahaha where do i begin

so if you have kept up with my previous blog post, you are aware of what i went through at the beginning of last semester. YOUR GIRL GOT THROUGH IT!!! can i get an amen??? did you ever think drew warren would get over that?? hahaha neither did i. but we gucci now and i love my life the way it is & appreciate the heartache now!!! weird right? i know
i finally started to grow in myself and with the Lord. holy moly its been so good i feel like i can't even put it into words.

but here is the thing. i was still wayyyyyy too worried about boys even after i was like "being single is great" blah blah blah. i told myself i would be single until God called me to be with someone else when my heart was ready. but i didn't listen to myself or to the Lord and still kept searching and searching without even realizing it honestly. i would talk about how i wanted to be single till i found the perfect guy, and how i would wait on the Lord to show me that i was even ready enough to be back in a relationship, but then found myself searching instead of waiting on the Lord. not even going to lie, i felt lonely. ITS THE WORST HOMIES I KNOW, I FELT IT. but i promise once i stopped worrying about making my own plans, and started focusing on trusting the Lord with my future, i didn't feel that anymore.
i just recently read this book called "single.dating.engaged.married" and boy did it change my life and if you can get your hands on it, i promise you'll thank me later. i really was able to connect with the "single" part of the book because i'm currently in my time of singleness right now (feels like its lasted forever). haha. (it hasn't but i'm just dramatic). but in the book it said "sometimes the most loving gift God can give us is singleness" and when i first read that i was like. i wouldn't say thattttttt. i'm forever alone lol. but nooooooo. IT IS A GIFT!!! our relationship with God matters far more than anything else in this life. so God gives us singleness so that we might be able to focus entirely on the One we were made by and for. don't miss the benefits of your time in singleness because you are so fixated on finding a bf/husband!!! its totally ok to long to be in a relationship, everyone does it. but don't let that desire steal all the joy of your present single stage and miss out on the benefits available to you in this season of life right now!!! we are called to use our singleness to serve others and live out the name of Jesus!!! can i get an amen, again!!!

I promise this entire thing isn't just going to be about boys lol I JUST FEEL SO STRONGLY AND AM VERY PASSIONATE ABOUT GIRLS FINDING THEIR WORTH JUST LIKE I DID!!!!

I also had to deal with other difficult things that did not have anything to do with boys and i grew in other ways i promise haha. difficulties with certain people also grew me as a person and really helped me mature in a lot of ways.
1. you have to talk to the person face to face or absolutely nothing is going to get solved (I feel this so so so hard because i am the WORST at confronting people about what is on my heart and it took me so stinking long to get over this fear and tell people how i'm feeling) lol (honestly i'm STILL learning and growing in this way, it takes time)
2. you can't expect all of your problems to just go away without being honest and upfront about them. be honest with yourself, be honest with God. you can't keep running
3.PATIENCE. i can't stress this enough honestly. this was a big one that i had to learn. in all aspects of my life. dating. friendships. school. running. people i tend to not agree with. it all taught me patience that was so important for me to learn at this time because your girl had NONE before college. it was very humbling and really helped my growing process.
4. last one. i promise im almost done ranting.
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!! ive been through so much that i didn't really go into deep detail about because, hahahahaha coach price probs doesn't want me to scare everyone. ;)
but everything that has led up to this moment right now, typing this blog, has made me who i am. i went through trial after trial and thought my life was over. but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and you are going to learn so much and its just going to shape you into the person the Lord is making you to be!!!!

ok i think im done
sorry this was a long one but it just weighed so heavy on my heart!!!! love you homies who kept reading for real<3